Tuesday, August 23, 2011

standing in our own sunshine...


Most of the shadows of this life are caused by our standing in our own sunshine.
Ralph Waldo Emerson


I stumbled across this quote today and it shot right through my brain... such a simple phrase of words, but they carry such weight and substance... who of us hasn't cast a shadow on our own life by standing in our own sunshine, blocking out the sparkle of our being and accomplishments... how quickly we are taught to take the shine off so as to not stand out too brightly against the rest of the pack... perhaps it was the words of a parent who crippled our ability to take center stage by casting doubt on our own skills... maybe the harsh words of a critic after a performance... the sting of a review after a heart based piece of prose was written... why do we never allow ourselves to be enough, even when we know we are enough...
our foundations are built and sunk into bedrock able to withstand any storm that encompasses us... foundations unshakable in the midst of life's chaotic tide... stronger than steel and more solid than bedrock.. but it takes one external voice, one opinion that what we have done is less than it could be, for those foundations to be wrenched from their moorings and leave us broken and hiding in the shadows...
why do we not grasp that what we are capable of and what we put forth is valuable
because we took the chance to dream...

natural progression of skill notwithstanding, our projects, our endeavors, our lives are valuable just as they are, because we are valuable... if we take the time to create, if we nurture, if we write or sing or paint, who is to say what we have done is less than... every brush stroke, every word written, every child nurtured, is by it's very action, blessed and holy in itself, worthy of praise and celebration...

would we stand at the shore and say that the tide should ebb and flow more smoothly, do we face the starry sky and request they be presented more orderly, do we critique the flight of the Eagle as inferior...

we routinely create and cast the shadows over our own abilities, dulling them down, pushing away the accolades of a job well done, leaving ourselves devoid of the joy of self and wholeness...
we need to remove the ability to discredit our own worth, and I know this is a difficult road to walk... perhaps the weight of abuse or neglect hangs heavy in our hearts, perhaps it is a long passed decision or mistake that haunts our thoughts, possibly a shouldering of regret at what could have or should have been.. if only... lay down the weight, and run free of the entanglements of this world, for moments past can never be undone and thus need to be filed away so as to serve only as a guide for the next mountain in our path...
let our new mantra be one of worthiness and character, competence and acceptance...

strip away the coverings and allow your true glowing colours to burst forth...
stop casting your own shadows, step forward and allow all the brilliance of who you are
to shine brighter than the rays of the sun...

embrace what you have created, embrace what you are capable of and
never let this gift be tarnished by any outside perspective...
we are glorious by the nature that we exist, whole and perfect and extraordinary...
refuse to be held back by yourself or anyone else, you deserve that much for your soul..
let those shadows cast before dissolve into completeness and perfection,
for this is how you were made... this is your right and your intention...

2 comments:

Katherine Jenkins said...

Can I just frame that and put it over my desk in my office? That was beautiful Ryan...and so very important to hear at this point in my life. Keep writing and sharing...!

Ryan said...

This piece felt great for me to get out and onscreen... the quote just took hold of me and shook me a little bit... love it when that happens.. I am glad it touched you as well.