Monday, October 4, 2010

I Am Not Perfect

I am not curvy
or lady-like
in physical appearance
or mannerisms.


I am ambitious
and have a strong
sense of self-worth.


I snore
I hate shopping
I don't like socializing.


I hate doing the
laundry
and the dishes
and am no
fan of keeping
things organized
.


I like hanging out
with the guys
And can argue
Until the moon
goes to bed.


I am judgmental
and opinionated
and you've heard
me fart.


I am obsessed
with planning
and usually have
a Plan C and D
ready in case
A and B fail.


I prefer my space
and want you
to have yours.


I nag at times
and complain
that you give away
"my" unused things
to those who
need 'em.


I am selfish
and clingy
sometimes both at
the same time.


I don't like
sharing you
with anyone ...
not even your mom.


I am not patient
or wise
and I'm a
sore loser.


I keep grudges
and it's hard for
me to let go
even when I know
I should.


I am strongly opinionated
and will not
take advantage of
the perks that come
with "being a woman."


I am self-critical
and confused
about where I want to be
and what I want to do.


I lie at times
when I think it's
the reasonable thing to do
but also sometimes
because it's easier.


I dig my nose
and my ears
and will not wax
my armpits until
I absolutely have to.


I make excuses
for little things
when I don't need to
but still have the
urge to.


I recognize
all my "flaws"
and know that
perfection is but
a myth
a mirage
a non-attainable
ideal.


It doesn't mean
I don't try to
become a
better person,
more tolerant
less critical
more accepting
less disparaging.


It doesn't mean
I don't strive
to improve
upon my shortcomings.



All it means
is recognizing
that perfection
isn't a standard
by which to judge
ourselves or fellow
human beings.


I am not perfect.


But my imperfections
make me the
unique person
I am.


They make me
the real me
not the person
I want to be
or pretend to be
but the person I am.


I am not perfect.



Are you?





Also posted on my blog.